The Daily Metaphor


This is called Productivity, Control, and Organization.
“Take your needle my child, and work at your pattern; it will come out a rose by and by. Life is like that, one stitch at a time, taken patiently, and the pattern will come out all right like the embroidery.”  – Oliver Wendell Holmes.

This is taken from the deck Oracle of Visions by Ciro Marchetti, which I use as a deck of metaphors. The book says this, ” This card considers the gathering of separate elements, people, or ideas, from the every day nuances of family dynamics, to the managing of a corporate team.

This Victorian seamstress manipulates various components as threads of color. With skilful hands, she arranges them, taking in to consideration the distinct and individual qualities that each may possess. She coaxes the best from each and orchestrates their ultimate working together as a whole. Giving each strand order, position and purpose, she blends them in to a rainbow of unity. Its beauty is a metaphor of accomplishment, surpassing that of its original separate parts.

Be wary of micro-managing, over controlling or getting lost in the details. Allow each participant to contribute fully and not be undermined by one person’s overall position. ”

It’s interesting that today my mother and I were having a back and forth about her visit here. I have a great restaurant that I want her to try because it’s first of all wonderful, but second of all unexpectedly wonderful to almost any taste, because it’s different. She absolutely refuses based on the ingredients that are used. She went digging on the internet after asking probing questions about my vague suggestion. She completely shut down the idea, even though I assured her it was a no risk venture, and we could go somewhere afterwards if she didn’t like it. No middle eastern food, she “shuddered” at the ingredients, things like bulgar and soy and yogurt.

There are all sorts of ingredients at this Middle Eastern place, and plenty of non vegan choices. I have never ever suggested a restaurant to her, nor anything vegan. It’s not a vegan restaurant. It just has those choices.
Really it doesn’t matter, because the place has weird hours and while she’s here it won’t be open. After this back and forth, I pulled my metaphor card for the day, and it was this one. It reminded me of people of different tastes and viewpoints trying to make plans. I’m sad it didn’t work out for her to try something new, but it’s really fine. We’re going to have a good time and I suppose it’s not that important. It’s hard when it’s your mom, because those issues of validation and not being believed come up. It’s easier for me to say to a friend, no no you’ll love it! There seem to be no emotional strings attached.

The other bit that I got from this metaphor is that the small things do count around the house. It only takes small bits of clutter here and there to make a mess, so likewise, picking up small bits here and there help keep things tidy. Sometimes I think I am spinning my wheels, or just avoiding big tasks by doing little things, but they add up! It’s good to keep on top of things, and every bit helps.


About this Blog

turkeysleg-trickslatteryArtwork by Trick Slattery from his freedoodles.

I do not, at this time, post things once I complete them. I have them published each time I save the writing. So it’s best not to read things when they first go up. I logged in today and realized I had saved a mess with a double post, lots of typos and silly unfinished ideas.

I will look in to saving drafts instead of “publish immediately”. It’s just not what I had been doing.

The Sacred World Oracle Post for Writing Stuff


This will be just a selfish writing exercise in which I take some cards and write about them, whatever comes to mind. My relationship with oracle and the like is one of creativity, and that’s as much as I care to explain at the moment.

The meaning of this card as explained by the makers:
“Keywords: Transitory Beauty, Illumination, Inspiration”
According to this here booklet, the abdomen of a firefly is lit up by a chemical called Luciferin. I find that interesting to think about, the derivative Biblical name for what causes bio-luminescence. This glow attracts mates and repels predators.  The booklet notes that the glow of the firefly is transitory as it is seasonal.

“Where the Firefly card appears in a reading, consider where you may require illumination in your life. Seek moments of unexpected beauty that offer gateways for inspiration. “

The interpretation takes a couple of angles, but I can’t help but think of “transitory” as the one that stands out the most. I am feeling negatively about myself in this way. I have flashes of brilliance and insight that are fleeting, and do not get caught in my paper lantern. They are gone forever, I think. I see this as failure, or a shame, but not as inspiration. How can I take this card positively? Is this a reminder to write things down when I can, now that I recognize this causes me disappointment? Is it saying to take control of that curse, when I lose these thoughts to the seasons of the day, when they fly away in to my mind’s dark night?
So I think for now I’ll move on to the next card, to see if it can help me with what I want to get out of that first card. Maybe there’s something here that can turn around this negative aspect that’s the dominating interpretation. Before I do that, I will add one more fear here. I worry that therapy for PTSD is also fleeting like the short lived glow of the firefly. I worry that illumination of psyche is temporary, and that the roots of my symptoms, or manifestation of my symptoms are amorphous.


Let’s move on to The Bluebird. It’s card number 39. The illustration is a cloudy sky with five different looking birds flying out of formation but in the same direction. The bird closest in the foreground to the viewer is the one with the most blue plumage. “Keywords: Optimism, Hope, Happiness, Idealism”
This card has not much of a description in the booklet other than historical references of using this as a symbol of happiness, and the rising sun.
Great. So I’m left on my own with this one. What I’ll do is go to images and look at photos of bluebirds and see if anything comes to mind.

I must admit that I’m having some physical discomfort today, and looking at these blue colors in these images is soothing. I was wishing that these cards tied together better, or that this card would shed light on the other card, and then I realized these were both flying creatures. I pictured a bluebird perched, and then flying off in a moment’s time. So “fleeting” might be the theme here, to my disappointment, as it is a continuation of the negative feelings I expressed for the firefly card. I don’t like the fleeting nature of insight and healing that I’ve experienced. So then I realize that I felt healed for a moment from my abdominal pains while I was looking at these colors. That moment has passed, my pains are still with me.

So now I have fleeting insights, and fleeting healing as a theme for these two cards.
How interesting. So now I’m anticipating the next card.


Spider -25
Oh great.
Actually even though I have been terrified of spiders in the past, I see them as bug eaters, and the “good guys”, especially in the garden.  So I enjoy thinking of spiders as the Ayuahasca symbol. That’s a scary drink that brings about visions for healing. These visions, people report can scare the crap out of them, but conjure up important imagery from the subconscious to face.  The work is “getting rid of bugs” if you will. Birds do the same thing, The firefly is a bug, so we can work our way backwards here. The booklet has my head reeling, because the focus is on the web weaving that a spider does, and ends with the reminder of the “world wide web”.

There are a few exciting concepts to think about here. I’m glad I got this card. The booklet explains this card means it’s time to seek out connections. The spider weaves a web of connections, and some folklore has a spider as the creator of the world, due to it’s amazing weaving instinct, and that leads us in to the thought of the World Wide Web.
When I first got this card, I wasn’t thinking at all about the web. I find myself, once again, that I pulled some cards and bothered to spend time thinking about them. So often I’ll pull some cards and not get much out of them, like a person with ADD, just glance at them, get a few images and thoughts and move on to something else. That is much like the firefly card suggests, I suppose, so that’s interesting to think about as well. Sure enough, though, whenever I take the time to explore meanings and textures of what I’m looking at, it turns out to be very interesting and beneficial.

So spiders trap and eat bugs, as do the healing blue birds. At first spiders can be terrifying, but they are actually hugely important and helpful. Spiders present that general lesson for us. For one, I think people are afraid of spiders, probably for their own good. However, this has eclipsed the truth of how wonderful they are unfortunately. When something gruesome comes up in our emotions, or experience, let’s face it head on and get the good from it. I had a horrible experience a few weeks ago that brought our emotions I had not felt n years, and thought that I would never feel again.  I hate to use such vague language, but it was a wake up call that in certain areas of my life, I have not come a long way, but I am an emotionally co-dependent person that experiences excruciating pain at the thought of being separated from the people I “love”. That is in quotes, because I mean, ‘the people I love codependently.’ . I have one relationship in my life that is based on unhealthy attachment, and there needs to be a transformation there.

That was so painful, that I have no hesitation referring to that as a demon. For the metaphors set out today, it’s a “bug”. That word seems to benign for the pain that I felt. So here is a thought: Lyme’s Disease. There are bugs that can bite you and cause you serious injury. This isn’t just a bug in my programming, this is full blown Lyme’s when it comes to this person. Recently on the web, I have been involved in a local activist group, and I’m getting to know people there so that I can feel comfortable going to meetings and participating in community activities. Hopefully that adds a strong strand to my failing web.

This exercise alone has helped me with the sense of “fleeting” firefly-like inspirations. It’s reminded me that looking deeper, and doing the work and documenting it is beneficial and can curb my feelings of failure. The Bluebird as the center card is a healing card, for its beauty and its bug eating, but can also come and go in seconds. I like that the bird can eat both bugs and spiders. It’s the dominant second figure in this spread and warrants more attention and thoughts. Because I associated that card with healing immediately, due to the soothing blue color, I will name this card as the one that has decided the theme. It’s saying, use this information to your benefit. Don’t just make distracting connections, but make healing ones. I will eat that spider that brings out those demon bugs once they’ve been trapped and demolished. Then the whole cycle will be accomplished. And I might leave quickly, but I can come back just as quickly as I left if I am summoned.

Thank you Sacred World Oracle for this exercise.

Yeah, I’m drinking, what of it?

I’ve had an emotionally difficult month, but  I’m better for it. Darn those eclipses.
My husband buys me alcohol bottles one after the next, he’s my vending machine.  But they sit here untouched. I’m usually not in the mood. But with menopause not making up its mind these last few days, I’ve decided that a couple of drinks starting at noon is the day cap I deserve.

I woke up to the Colbert torrent with Anita Sarkesian. [ I feel like my dictionary should not prompt me to change her name to Keynesian, but oh well. That should be our next move. Let’s add Anita’s name to the god damned dictionary HA!  ]

So I didn’t like the interview much, but life is good, because 8chan weirdos are mad. Time for another drinkie poo. I feel like watching Death on the Nile and saying “drinkie poo” with Angela Landsbury and singing sarcastic songs with Mia Farrow. Fuck you guys.  OH! And oggling pearls with Maggie Smith’s boss Ms. Bette Davis.  Which reminds me, “Nice Pearls, this isn’t a dinner party, honey!” I think I’ll watch Pretty In Pink, too, just because it’s been awhile and I’m 80’s like that.

Hm, after checking out this first video I’m left with thoughts that I am all of the people in this scene, just like in dreams.  We are every character.

The Uncomfortable Human

People are very uncomfortable in their own skin. The phrase ‘in their own skin’  is often said in reference to identities and social comfort, but I mean this to describe our relationship with our physical states. Hunger and sex drives are at the base, and signal us with discomfort.  Beyond that we are hot, or cold or itchy. The pain we experience on an emotional level is where many attempt to tackle the discomfort. Feelings of anger, resentment, guilt, envy, rejection, and many others, will send people to the ends of the earth to become “enlightened” and that definition is often described as letting go of these things, or getting over the discomfort these entities present. The way to become “enlightened” is to pursue means  to divorce ourselves from these sensations.

So this is what it is to be human. We are in a constant state of unrest and discomfort along a spectrum of dull ache to suicide. Because this is every day, every moment of life, some might question the value of even analyzing these states of consciousness. Others argue that it’s shallow not to.

My reason for bringing our base states up is as a reminder to what it means to be human. My reason for bringing up “enlightenment” in this context is to show that people are in a constant state of discomfort and associate these states with failure and pain. These states are pain states. I have found that people need reminders that to be, is to be in a pain state.  I also have found it  necessary to remind others, while having philosophical conversations, that people will do anything to quell these states on every level. We’re not “fine” with it, and the quest for enlightenment does not include accepting these pain states, but divorcing ourselves from these sensations. We don’t want to feel them.


“There are times when my pain medication stops working and the horrible nerve pain takes over, ripping through my innocent leg. I lay on my bed trapped, trapped by pain. I feel fear, afraid the pain will never cease, afraid I’ll go insane. I cry out to God begging for mercy. What have I done to deserve this fate? I feel like an innocent man condemned. I am trapped in a cage of pain, a cage made of rebar. I cannot tolerate it another second. I try a desperate escape by pushing my face through the bars, but I can go no further. I’m trapped in hell.” –Mark Collen
Pain Exhibit

Taking Intellectual Snobs Seriously Who Eat Animal Products


There’s just no excuse anymore.  I am talking about the people that get “ableism” and can defend the use of CIS gender as a term. Who the f*** do you think you are still eating animal products?

I’m sorry, is it too hard to read the plethora of information available to you about this? I just can’t fathom an excuse for these people.

There should not even have to be a treatise on how feminism and veganism go together, I find that strange, but there it is.

Torturing animals is the worst ableism of all, and not knowing that eating animal products is torture is wilful irresponsibility. It’s not a matter of opinion. It’s a fact. Any wilfully obtuse argument one can generate has been debunked. There is lack of due diligence with these people, and since they cut others absolutely no slack upon expressing some idea they should already know more about, they’re in this same category with me. No mercy.
Here, enjoy a few seconds long audio clip in which someone smarter than me yells at you. And I apologize that he says ‘crazy’. He is addressing the worst ableists on earth though.